SO

I basically have the best fucking friends ever. Since I couldn't attend the flyers carnival my good friend kyle got upshall to sign a puck for me=] (AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH) and my friend amanda took me to wednesday nights game against the kings (which was a win, by the way:) My hair smells really fucking awesome and I'm in the best mood=]

Thank you Shannyn Sossomon

for making me not hate having my boring dark features and the fact that my upper lip curls up quite a bit when i
smile.

what the hell.

I have some of the most bizarre dreams. I hate it. The worst is when I wake up pissed off/upset thinking it's real.

I've been throwing around the idea of doing a photozine type thing for quite a bit. I have a lot of ideas and I've (kinda) figured out how to do it, I just need some money haha. It's not going to be out anytime soon though.

Best weekend.
I'm so tired.
I'm starting to not be so afraid anymore...
My english teacher gave me another book to read, it's by the author of kite runner since it's my new favorite book.
Eating cake batter is such a bad idea...so is eating before you work out.

Mother father sister brother.

Despite the fact that they can get really really annoying sometimes, I think I have the best parents in the world. I love how I can make retarded sex jokes with them and not even feel awkward or freaked out.

Be patient.

I've been way too tired but I get to sleep in again tomorrow which is awesome. The show last night was cool. It was small but still fun. This weather has put me in such a good mood. I need a new pair of black pants real bad. I also need to get paid. The other day my accounting teacher came up to me and told me del val offers a free ride to one accounting major a year and that I should go for it. Really? I suck at math and I was suprised she actually came up to me and said that but it's always good to know a teacher has faith in you.

nevermind!! i think! maybe?

Time to let this pass.

I absolutely hate the fact that I've been afraid to drive anywhere new/far since I got into my car accident. I get way too nervous and scared. This is what I didn't want to happen.


It would actually be really cool if someone started video taping shows. It'd be cool to see some nicely done live footage with sweet lenses and angles and whatnot. It'd be something different and cool that I've never seen anyone around here do.

Edit:

Despite not looking forward to this weekend at all, it ruled. I hung out with some of the best people, hardly slept, and had nice wawa dinners.

I love my job, despite the fact that I haven't been making much lately. One of the best parts about it is the fact that I know people actually want to be in the store. It's not like the grocery store where people go in all miserable because they HAVE to be in there. Most of the time I just sit there and listen to customers ramble on about their pets, and for the most part they're really really kind people. One time I was ringing this lady up while she was telling me a story about how her dog died. We both got really teary eyed and just kept talking and a pretty long line formed behind her. It's weird but it's that kind of stuff that really makes me appreciate the fact that I'm one of the few kids that didn't end up with a shitty first job.

Everyone's depressed and broke.

So tell me what annoys you and or has been really annoying you lately. I'm curious. I have a laundry list. I need to get out of this funk I've been in. I need to do SOMETHING really fun to get my mind off the stupid shit I've been thinking about.

I find this song extremely catchy.

Also, today at work this lady came in and told me about how her daughter makes a ton of money making random videos like this one.



and then she asked me if I had seen 2 girls 1 cup and told me about that video. It's actually her mother and the ladies daughter made it. I lol'd.

Stay Gold.

so pretty.

Today wasn't too bad. I got out at one and had lunch with my mom which was nice. After I went to Kates for a little to play with chlo since she was busy doing school work. She looked so cute all concentrated hahaha.

I have too many horrible preconcieved notions about dating. I feel like it might be due to the fact that last year all the guys I dated were too close together and I didn't have anytime to really collect myself or be by myself. Or maybe I'm just a fucking idiot. Either way, I need to stop being like this because I don't really think I want to be alone forever.

On a lighter note, I hate Kate for showing this to me.



I've noticed that a lot of my older friends/family didn't get into the colleges they wanted to get in to, but somehow things worked out and they seem like they're having the time if their lives. For instance, my brother didn't get into Millersville and ended up going to Pitt as his last choice, he's having the time of his life and I'm pretty sure he met his future wife. I just hope somehow things work out for me. I've fucked up a lot and I just really want to be happy with my choices when I'm done here.

I've been so lonely.

Start Today.

Today was the start of new classes. It was such a god damn long day, I couldn't stand it. Thank god I'm almost done. I swear I'll be so much happier and I'll have such a better outlook on life once I'm out of here.

The weather the past two days has been fucking awesome. This weekend ruled too. Friday on the way home from kevins I got a fucking flat tire, Saturday I went to marissas apt with sean and met up with a bunch of people there and just hung out all night. Pookie drove me home and the next day we went to the Cold World show.

I can't wait until March. The rest of this month (with the exception of next weekend) is going to suck balls. Valentines day will be stupid as always, maybe I'll try and work that day or something so I don't have to sit at home while all my friends are out or something.

This is the time of year where everything that annoys me is multiplied by 10000. God fucking damnit.

cannot wait to get my feet tattooed.