Sleep.

I love pizza but i hate when it's too hot and burns the roof of my mouth. Right now it's peeling and it hurts so bad to eat anything.

You're too mean.

I hate how I've been so bummed out lately. I guess it's because I'm in the middle of things and I can't control what's going on. I can't please the people I care about and it's frustrating. It seems like I'm always doing something wrong in this situation even though it's hardly mine. I guess it just makes me upset because I feel like I'm constantly losing friends to absolutely nothing. Oh well, maybe that's the way it's supposed to be? I don't know. I guess everything's just starting to hit me right now and I feel really really lonely. I miss having my close knit group of four/five friends I had growing up, and now I don't really have that anymore.

People never change.

Things are completely different than how they were in say...september. So much has changed and it's mostly been for the worse. I feel sick to my stomach and I can't do anything about it.


Just wake me up when this is over.

Someday, we'll look back and laugh.

I have two finals tomorrow and I haven't been able to crack a single book open. It's sad, but I can't say I care enough. I have absolutely no energy left to do anything with school. Last summer was kind of a disappointment, so I'm not really expecting much out of this one. I guess there's work and trying to start my GP. No warped tour this year because the line up is absolutely awful. I'm breaking a five year tradition but I don't think a 35$ ticket and 5$ water is worth it to spend the day in Camden sweating my tush off, only to see probably three or four bands I care about. Besides nothing could beat last year.


uhh.

Tell me I'm childish all you want.

It's really funny how people try and come back into your life. It's too late and I'm not really a firm believer in second chances regarding relationships, especially at this age. The whole thing really pisses me off. I was fine with talking to you and being your friend until you had to bring shit up and remind me how much everything sucked. It's too late for an apology, and it's funny how you've been trying so hard for another chance. Take no for answer, I don't want you, I don't need you. I have someone new who makes me perfectly happy and you can't seem to get that through your head. You promised me you'd never treat me like shit but you ended up fucking me over pretty bad. You broke your promise therefore, I can't trust you. I don't care if I sound mean or if I sound like a bitch, you get what's coming to you. You fucked up, you don't deserve a second chance. I honestly don't care about how upset you are over this because you obviously didn't give a fuck about how upset you made me.


Last full day of school tomorrow, then I'm a senior.

I AM:

immature
lazy
stupid
annoying
unmotivated
tired


and anything else you could possibly tack on this wonderful list of ADJECTIVES.

FOREVER FUCKED.

I'm to lazy to do anything and it sucks because this is the most work I've had in such a long time and I'm having such a hard time doing any of it. Why can't this be over. I SUCK.

Wake me up when this is over.

This weekend was interesting I guess. Sweet time at work friday and then the shortest show I've been to in a real long time, but it was sweet for what it was. Oh and a certain someone basically tried to get back together with me on Friday night after the show...it's not happening. Snooze ya lose fgt. It was pretty retarded but whatever. Carly and I spent all damn saturday in my bed sleeping. We woke up once to eat chick fil a and then went back to sleep and it was awesome. Saw strangers with Jonas which was real fun but the movie itself was kinda disappointing. Still creepy though. Had a hard time sleeping. Work today was kind of lame, too tired to stand up and be productive. This week and next week should be total hell and then summer. Grad project. OOF.