Wake me when you're through being cool.

My feet stink so bad. I just don't feel like wearing socks with my shoes.

If only we were older.

This summer hasn't been bad at all it's just been really really really weird. For a lot of different reasons. I became friends with people I never thought I'd become friends with, and ultimately, things are turning out the way I least expected. Which is both good and bad, especially with what just happened. I've realized that I really need to start doing things for myself regardless of the outcome. In the end, you only have yourself.

Honestly?

I haven't felt this bad/weird in so long. I had so much time to think about the situation and I feel awful. It's weird how quickly things can change but maybe the sooner the better? I don't know. You probably don't know what I'm talking about but it's probably better that way.

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I want to dive, but i can't find your feet. You with a view so unlike my own. I'm trying on your eyes.




Fuck. i've come to realize that i don't really think i know who or what makes me happy anymore. Maybe i'm just thinking too much about everything. I had a really good talk last night with a good friend and it made me rethink and realize a lot of things.

I guess i'm not as happy with things as i seem and a few people have brought that to my attention. I don't really know though. I tend to jump into things too fast and not think.



I want to live at the ocean so bad. Or somewhere close to it. I'm moving as soon as i possibly can.



I should probably stop here before i get too carried away. I hope my punctuation doesn't bother whoever is wasting their time reading this.

FRICK YOU.

Butter on a summer day.

Today my dad and I had a fairly long talk about what we want to happen to our bodies when we die/funerals/wills, and all that stuff. It was weird and upsetting, but he didn't seem to get mad at me when I talked about my death like he used to. I guess you have to disucss this stuff with your parents at some point. The thought is too weird. I guess he thought it was necessary since my cousin Danny probably won't make it past tonight.


Of course basically every funeral I go to is in Wilkes-Barre.

Sleep.

I love pizza but i hate when it's too hot and burns the roof of my mouth. Right now it's peeling and it hurts so bad to eat anything.