What do you do when it twists all around?

I need to start putting things more into perspective. I need to stop over analyzing every little thing and just accept things/people/situations for how good or bad they are and just accept it. I need to take a step back and take everything in. I'd like a nice two week vacation, preferably back to the beach. My stay was far shorter than I had hoped it'd be, but that's because I had to go back to the work/school reality thing. That's life, that's growing up, and I need to stop being a huge baby and accept it. I need to stop being so down on myself all the time and just accept the way I am. I need to be happy with myself. 

I hope this year goes by really fast. I'm not looking forward to my upcoming birthday for obvious reasons. I also need to stop being a baby, really, it'd do me some good. Grow up, suck it up, and shut up. 

This is probably my last post for a really long time. 

Lose yoself.

What a nice weekend at the shore/city...now back to reality. I wonder how much longer I'll be able to stand this place. 

Trees seem a little deader.

I have to keep telling myself it's not so bad. It's not where I want to be, but, it's not so bad. If I just keep my nose in those books, I'll be okay. I feel really far away from everyone. I hate still living in the suburbs. It's too boring. I'm really worried things aren't going to work out for me. One anxiety leads to another...and another...and another...

In other news, my boyfriend is wonderful and is honest to god probably one of the very few things making me happy right now. I need a change of scenery, and a long vacation.