Jet Black New Year

Holy fuck, Marley & me is so fucking sad. It's such a cute happy movie until the ending. I was seriously sobbing like a fucking baby. The thing not only acts like my dog, but it's a god damn yellow lab. I was really upset until Kate and I stuffed our faces at Perkins. I ate so much I had to unbutton my pants when I took a nap.

SO, 2008 was actually a really good year for me.

• I met a lot of really awesome people and gained quite a few friends even though I lost a few. I also became closer with a few people.
• I went to my first flyers game in about 10-12 years.
• I witnessed my first Philadelphia championship victory (Phillies obv).
• I got my first real job.
• Although I should have gotten into about 354087 car accidents throughout the year, I got into my first one a few weeks ago. And of all the places I drive to, it was on the way to school. Anyway I love my mini van.
• I made honor roll for the first time since the end of 10th grade.
• Dated one of the worst humans.
• Went to a lot of awesome shows.

Yadda yadda, the list goes on but it would have gotten even more cheesy. Last new years eve was horrible. Things didn't work out as I would have liked them too and I just ended up going to that awful new years eve show with sean. We left kinda early and went to the diner for a little bit. Then we went to my house and while I was being a debbie downer in my bed, he was jumping all over me singing cro mags. I started off the year really shitty even though it turned out to be a great one. I hope 2009 is just as good, if not better.

Money to burn

I really need to start saving my money. I need to stop going to wawa everyday and eating take out and buying shit just because it's on sale. I don't even have enough hangers for my clothes. I need to stop. Oh is anyone good at sewing? I need a bunch of band shirts taken in.

I'm so sore but I feel fucking awesome. I'm dying my hair back to black on tuesday. Can't wait.

Change Places.

I love how my mom likes to give me some of my presents two days after christmas. Either that, or she totally forgets about some of the stuff she got me. It's silly, I love her. She just gave me poloriod film, dark chocolate pretzels, and some other little things. Last night was super fun. Kate, Dan and I just kinda drove around listening to loud obnoxious music and sat at this diner for like three hours playing hangman. My dad doesn't know shit about his iPod so I successfully taught him how to load all his cds onto the computer and into his iPod. Except they didn't go onto his iPod for some reason and now he's mad at me. hahahahha no care it's actually funny. I love my grandmas mini van. I think I might like it better than my old car.

off to play with kittehz. Who wants to hang out? I have work 'till nine tonight.

Christmas Vacation

I love how crazy and loud my extended family is. Even though our christmases with eachother aren't the same since my grandmother died and everyone grew up and started hating eachother, I still love it.I ate so much good food at my aunts houses yesterday that I got so sick this morning. Thankfully everyone liked the gifts I got them (except kate hasn't gotten hers yet). I got the first two seasons of it's always sunny so I know what I'm doing for the rest of my break! My mom also got me a huge ugly doll pillow which was actually a total joke between kate and I but the thing is so comfortable I'm gonna take a nap on it later. My brother got me a little kids flyers jersey because I'm too small to fit into the adult ones. What a guy. My dad got an iPod and watching him open that thing up was like watching ralphie open up his red ryder bb gun.

EDIT
Since we're in the midst of getting our kitchen remodeled, we had to go out to get breakfast. We went to dunkin donuts of all places because obviously nothing is open with the exception of chinese food places. It was awesome, it reminded me of that scene at the end of a christmas story where the turkey or ham or whatever gets all messed up so they go out to eat chinese food. DD breakfast is actually really good.

I stopped by kates for a little so we could exchange gifts. She got me a purple aa deep v and the most retarded/hilarious christmas card ever.

I need some sleep real badly.

Kate better watch out!!

7-1

My dad and I went to the flyers vs caps game today. It was so much fun. It was the first game I had been to in about ten years. Aside from the 7-1 game victory, having awesome seats, and getting to see a good old friend of mine, for the first time in awhile I could tell my dad was really happy. It's always awesome to see him in a good mood because he's always so stressed out from work and whatnot. It was a nice break from us getting into arguments everyday this week. Hockey is definately the first thing my dad and I have bonded over in awhile (well, since playing guitar) and I couldn't be any happier. Except he wishes I was into the eagles. OH WELL. We decided we're going to more games this season. I can't wait.

That whole wintry mix last night was no lof but for a night in by myself it wasn't too bad. I finally got to watch camp rock from beginning to end, and I ate about five bowls of cereal.

Our kitchen's almost done, and it looks great. It'll be nice to finally have a home cooked meal. Sleepovers over break plz?

I always get the short end of the stick.

I don't know if it's my birth control making my psycho (i'm just about my fourth day in) or my car combined with my job issues. Either way this has absolutely been the shittiest most frustrating week and absolutely nothing seems to be going right. I think this is the first year ever that I'm not looking forward to christmas. I know awhile back I said I was, but right now I'm really not.

I'll stop whining eventually.

Frustration.

Today instead of going to school I went to visit Arcadia with my brother, his girlf and her parents. It's a really nice school and I'm definitely considering it for my second choice, but I still prefer temple. Afterwords I went home and slept for two hours and woke up in the shittiest mood. My brother had to come in my room and make fun of me for the accident and then tell me how he comes first in the family. I love my brother and everything but sometimes he's such a god damn fucking dick when he comes home. That was the last thing I needed and now I'm just moping around feeling shitty and sorry for myself. I was doing really good about not thinking about my accident and car/being sad over it and of course he has to act like a self righteous prick. wahh wahh wahh pitty me. And then he goes on a rampage about how if I end up going to bucks for a year I'm "never going to get out" / "make" something of myself. Of course he's comparing me to his friends who are total piece of shit slackers. Big brothers suck a majority of the time. Except I love it when his girlfriend Alyssa yells at him for being a dick to me and puts him in his place and he totally shuts up. I hope they get married. Why haven't they been dating for the past 18 years?

Is it fall yet? Seriously. OH WAIT. I haven't even been accepted to college LOL.


This is going to be the absolute worst and slowest week. I'm sure the following week will be the same. I'm not even looking forward to break anymore. I just want to sleep all day.

all i have to say is:

ALL THA SINGLE LADIES
ALL THA SINGLE LADIEZZZZ
PUT YA HANDS UP












IF YOU LIKED IT THAN YOU SHOULDA PUT A RIIIINGNG ON IT

Show a little back bone.

With that being said, I actually had a really good day thanks to Joie calling me and asking me to go christmas shopping with her. We took pictures on santas lap and then went to taylors so she could drop a few things off and then to my suprise I saw kate. It was awesome because I wasn't expecting to see her. Then we went to klops and just hung out there with a bunch of people which ruled. All in all it was a good night and I feel fine. I'm just tired.

Accident Prone.

I definately woke up in a weird mood and for some reason I had a feeling I would somehow crash my car on the way to school. WHAT DO YOU KNOW. I rear end a girl from my school because I'm a fucking retard and I wasn't paying attention to the fact that she was in front of me while I trying to merge. Kate hit her head but she's okay, I'm physically okay, my car...I don't know really. It was smoking and my headlight completely fell out and shattered, the other one is hanging from wire. My dad said if it costs more than 500 or so to fix we're junking my car:-/ The other girl is fine and she didn't seem mad about it at all. She had one of those old fucking cadillacs or whatever and her cars a fucking brick so if course nothing happened to hers which is good, for her at least. I'm just really embarassed and ashamed of myself because it was my fault and it could have easily been avoided. Not only that but now I don't have a car to drive so I'm stuck home. I'm just really really mad at myself and people are sending me retarded texts asking me if my parents are mad at me. The answer is NO, they're not mad at me one bit. It's not like I did it on purpose. It's funny how a random stranger stopped to see if I was okay, and all the kids I knew at school just stared at me and drove passed me. I don't even know if I have anything to drive in over break. I should just move to Lancaster where I can just ride a horse and buggy. At least those never crash into eachother. I think.


I guess there's a first for everything, right?

FUCK MY CAR. I hope it gets fixed real soon or something. it's my little station wagon with dog stickers=[

OKAY

This reminds me of a new age xanga. FUCK.

Sorry about that.

Today in psych I was talking with two of my good friends, who just so happen to be in long term relationships about how they're going to deal with being in a relationship, along with going away to college. They both seemed pretty stressed out about it and it made me realize that being in one now would be so stressful considering I don't even know what I'm doing next year and I don't want to be put in that position and feel like I have to revolve my plans for next year around someone else. Call me selfish, but that's the last thing I want. I guess I need to be a little selfish right now and just figure my life out before letting anyone else in. SO, when people ask me "oh, what don't you date so and so?!?!" well, there's a large part of my answer. Don't get me wrong, a boy/cute cuddle buddy sounds absolutely awesome right now especially since it's cold out but it's not really what I need. Actually, a cuddle buddy would be nice. So would a huge Macintosh scented Yankee candle.

I hate the way my body deals with my periods. It seriously makes everything so shitty. My stomach feels fucking huge and I feel like someone just piled a ton of bricks onto my lower abdomen and a 3000000000 pound man is sitting on them.


AT LEAST I LIKE MY HAIR CUT.

Unlearn.

Tomorrow during the last half of first block we're having an assembly about sending n00dz...seriously what the fuck. It's going to be so funny considering a good 85% of those girls sitting in the audience are naked somewhere on a random strange boys phone. Actually, multiple phones.

I fucking hate the whole process of the menstrual cycle, especially since mine's a good couple days late. FUCK THIS I HAVE BEEN FEELING LIKE BLOATED HUNGRY TIRED SHIT FOR THE PAST WEEK. I NEED RELIEF. Anyway I might be going to a hockey game or two this week with my brother? I'm so stoked. Even if it doesn't happen, I'm going to one in about two weeks thanks to a wonderful friend of mine:)

I got my hair cut today for the first time in almost a year and for the first time in forever I'm actually really really happy with it. It's exactly what I wanted. AND yesterday I bought a hoop nose ring and I had such a hard time trying to get it in. I just about pierced abother hole next to my existing one...I might just go back and have them put it back in for me. My nose was so red I looked like rudolph.

If you could hear the dreams I've had my dear.

This weekend was great. Friday I went to see Tigers Jaw, then went to see 4 Christmases' with Allie, Mariana, and Liz. It was so much fun and I haven't laughed at a new movie in so long. Saturday I went over Kate's before the show and I love her family so fucking much. They're the only other family I know, besides mine, that still love me even though I walk around the house without pants and constantly make foul jokes. The show was so much fun. It was freezing and snowing but it was fine to drive in. In between bands Justin kept putting on random rap songs that were fun to dance to. Toward the end everyone got into a snowball fight then I went up to Perkasie and hung out which was super fun. I worked from 11-5 today and I'm so fucking tired. I hate peddlers village during festivals some days because it's so overwhelming. My boss has an open door policy so even though it was 20 degrees and windy as fuck we had to keep the door open. Sucked, but MONEY.

CHRISTMAS IS SOON. I'm so excited. I can't wait for all this chaos at work to be over. I love christmas carols but I really hate hearing the same ones over and over for five hours.

Tired Eyes.

Psychology has easily become my favorite class as far as school goes. I love being able to sleep in two hours late and then go to psych class. I'm a nerd but it's seriously so fascinating. I ask a retarded amount of questions in that class. I could probably go on and on and on about all the stuff I learn because it's so god damn interesting. I haven't been this excited about learning since photo 1 sophomore year. /nerd

After watching the Victoria's Secret fashion show, I had the sudden urge to buy underwear(what a suprise) SO right after school I went to get some and I had one of those 10$ off things and I was so stoked and then they gave me another pair for free WHAT THE FUCK SO AWESOME. 7 pairs of undies for 15 dollars rather than 5 for 25. I also got some christmas shopping out of the way. I'M SO STOKED. Also, seriously someone go to the city with me to look at that ginormous christmas tree. OKAY.

SUCH A GOOD MOOD. UGH.

Tired Minds.

I'm so tired. All I feel like doing right now is buying underwear and sleeping. I can't wait until christmas break. As soon as I was done complaining about how shitty my paycheck was, I got asked to work about three times this week, and one is a six hour day SO I'm very very happy about that. My grades are good so far but I'm really pissed I haven't gotten anything back from colleges. I don't know why I made that plural since I've only applied to one so far. I'm probably going to apply to arcadia this weekend. Over break I want to go to the city and look at the big fat christmas tree and all the pretty lights and decorations. I love Christmas carols but listening to the same ones over and over at work gets really really annoying. Speaking of work yesterday i told this lady to put her dog on the counter so I could give it a treat and it jumped up and kissed me. It was this cute little white fluffy thing. I love when I'm working and dogs try and come behind the counter and their owners get so embarrassed so they feel the need to yell at their dog. It's so cute.

Gutless.

Once again, I am being a complete and total fucktard and stressing over school, college, etc. I just need to stop and realize it isn't the end of the world. I really think it's the fact that I'm still sick and am back to waking up at the crack of fucking dawn everyday, therefore I'm cranky. Oh well, I'll get used to it. Today I recieved the most pathetic paycheck I have ever gotten. I was so mad about it and let it totally ruin the rest of my day because I really was relying on that money to buy christmas presents for my family/kate. OH WELL. That's what I get when I can't work a day and I don't even have regular hours anymore. My dad gave me a couple bucks to buy my brother and alyssa presents. OH AND today I went a little crazy at work and bought my dog a bunch of obnoxious looking yet awesome dog treats for christmas. I'm a dork.